That bitter taste

For the last 36 hours I've had an extremely unpleasant bitter taste in my mouth. Imagine letting an aspirin tablet dissolve on your tongue and having it linger for two days. That's the kind of bitter I mean- medicinal, nasty, gag-inducing.

Drinking and eating food masks the bitterness momentarily but as soon as you swallow, it comes back. But the problem is I'm so far from hungry that it's an effort to even eat bacon. I never thought I'd live to see the day when I'd have a hard time getting excited about bacon. I LOVE bacon. Just not in my mouth right now.

I've been completely ambivalent about food the last couple of days but I know I need to eat something. I'm willing my appetite to return! I have Top Ramen (not the best thing I know, but it's my chicken noodle soup of the moment), fruit, vitamin water, crackers, more fruit... The protein thing I'm still struggling with but will start tackling this week, I swear!

My last doctor appointment I had lost over 12 pounds in one month. I got a "get out of jail free" card because I was in my first trimester and lots of women do lose weight the first three months.

The doctor did ask me if I felt okay, and if I was having trouble keeping food down- at the time I felt great and no, I had no trouble keeping food down. I was completely mystified that I had lost weight, the only thing I could thing of was that by eating smaller meals throughout the day, I ultimately was eating less food quantity-wise and eating more healthy to boot.

Well now I feel crappy, don't' want to eat, and can't keep food down. I'm starting to feel panicked and am crossing my fingers that by my next visit, I haven't lost any more weight. First time in my life I'm actually grumpy about losing weight. This pregnancy thing has turned everything topsy-turvy.

If the past two days are any indication of the next few weeks, I'm in for a bumpy ride. I keep telling myself it's temporary, and it means my body is working to make a baby- so it's all good, right?

Still I get that nagging thought - the second trimester is supposed to be when I start feeling better, not worse!

But at the end of the tunnel, I'm going to have a darling little Green who is hopefully just like her/his daddy and a wee bit like me. February feels so far away!